Wow I am in pain. A lot of pain. But I've been ignoring it for so long I forgot how much hurt there really was. Why does my father have to be a narcissist? Why do my friends not understand? How come every morning I wake up with tears in my eyes? How long have I been pushing my feelings aside for others? I just want to cry, every day, every mention of my father, or my mother, or any of my family. I just want to cry but I cant because their always watching, everyone, I have to put on my happy face and deal, with family, with friends, with my life. ALL ALONE. Its how I feel. alone. Im hurting! But how can I when I'm ignoring the pain?
